I am so close to just snapping
I am so stressed out and full of anxiety, bad habits, bad ideas, negative thoughts, you name it. I’m busy as all hell trying to juggle school, cadets, work, my social life; quite frankly, all I want to do is curl up in my boyfriends arms, and never leave. Because he is the only light at the end of this dark, cold tunnel I’m about to walk through blind folded. He is the only thing keeping me on two feet right now. Yet, I’m going two weeks without seeing his handsome face simply because neither of us have any time, between my school work, cadet activities, his work schedule and college prep. Realistically, not seeing him for weeks at a time wouldn’t be such a struggle if the beginning of our attempt to go long distance wasn’t a month and a half away.The two of us will be spending all summer apart, followed by the school year. Not sure whats scarier: trying to pass math, distcance, or having to start packing all my belongings and saying good bye to the only home I’ve ever known. Maybe all three combined?
Long story short, being a teenager sucks. School sucks. Boyfriends suck. Money sucks. The government sucks. Being evicted sucks. Society sucks. Everything just fucking sucks.
I’m going to cry for a little bit now.